This is going to be just a rant. There is no overall idea to tackle or anything. I was going to blog about something else entirely tomorrow, but I figure now is the best time.
So about 45 minutes ago the first I Ho Chuan meeting for me ever ended. I felt... lots of things. Logically, it was great. I got a lot of information, which further defined the scope of the year to come. All very good things. But then I realized I was buzzing. not in a good way. I realized that I'm definitely nervous. Scared even. Maybe a little bit terrified. A lot of emotions running around. Crazy.
Logic
-This is going to be awesome
-It's a challenge, as it is supposed to be, and it's exciting
-It's going to be hard, but things worth doing are always hard
-If I don't quit, I haven't failed - This also happens to be one of my personal beliefs about life in general by the way. I really like this one.
Emotions
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So I guess stuff just got really real. And that's scary. And Crazy. And exciting like when you're just going over the cusp of the beginning of the rollercoaster. So scary, crazy, exciting, anxious all in that " oh dear lord what have you done but this is going to be pretty awesome and I feel empowered and invincible because I have faith in myself that I'm going to do some amazing things because I refuse to do any less and because I decided that at this point the only thing left is to follow through and not look back" kind of way.
Now I just hope I don't feel so awkward next time.
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